Nancy likes to post cartoons, most of which are pretty funny. If you think this cartoon is funny, then you are truly a nerd.
Are you laughing yet? If so, go read What’s your favorite programmer cartoon at stackoverflow.com.
Christmas is just a couple day’s away and I am singing the blues.
It has been 7 years, 8 months and 2 days since my older brother Fabian past away. He died suddenly. He discovered he had a brain tumor on Thursday had surgery on Saturday and passed on Sunday. Even with all the time that has gone by, I still miss him. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of him and some day’s I think of him more than others. This holiday season has me thinking of him often. It’s strange, I could be washing the dishes, driving down the street or walking up an aisle in the grocery store and he just comes to mind. It’s not anything I see or do that makes me think of him, he just pops into my head. Some day’s the thoughts make me smile and some day’s the thoughts make me sad. The thought that haunts me the most is the thought that I have out lived my oldest sibling. He past when he was 39, I am now 40.
It’s difficult to talk to people about the loss for several reasons.
- Some people have been lucky enough to never have to experience such a tragedy.
- Talking about him brings up to many emotions and regrets for me.
- It has been 7 years.
Every now and again I will know someone who has lost a loved one and it hurts to empathize. The situation breaks my heart. It’s like re-opening a wound that just will not heal right. I want to be able to show my sympathy, but I can’t because the flood gates will open and all hell will break loose. It is so much easier for me to avoid the situation all together. I’ll look at the scar and move one. I’m such a coward! (I know 😦 )
I personally believe that it is easier to accept a person’s death when they are older and it’s expected. But when they are in the prime of their life and then they are gone? It is tough to get a handle on it, I’m not sure I ever will. There have been many, many times I have thought of what I could have done, what I should have done and it just makes me sad. I have one too many regrets and there is nothing I can do about it except do my best not to have any regrets with the others I love in my life.
This past Sunday we had our family Christmas at Dick’s mom’s house.
Grandma Vera, doesn’t she look great?
Charlie and Mathew playing the guitar. I was truly impressed with both of them.
Here is Andrew giving the guitar a try.
Here is Grandma Vera with her great grandkids.
Grandma Bonnie has tons of squirrels in her yard. They kept coming to the window, it appeared as if they wanted to see what in the heck all the ruckus was. I decided to feed these guys some almonds and peanut brittle. They loved the peanut brittle.
Geni is a pretty cool web application for creating a family tree. It’s very easy to add nodes and you don’t have to know anything but the person’s name. Here’s mine from a distance
And a little closer
I can share mine with other people and they can add to it and change it.
What is your favorite Christmas song?
Mine is Little Drummer Boy.